Been slacking on weekly updates...

So with the move and school, and break and problems with animals, I've gotten really bad at these updates that I was wanting to do every week!!

But now that the house is getting together better, Daisy & Luke are spayed & neutered, and declawed and Hope's hernia and tumor are fixed, and we got a new camera on Black Friday, I can get back to it!!

We got a new digital camera, because ours was either stolen or lost in March, with our first move. We got a Nikon for $88 at Target, originally $140. It's awesome and we are very happy with our Christmas present to ourselves. lol.

Also, a while back we got some pretty paint on clearance at Walmart for $7 and yesterday we painted our bathroom and today we are probably going to do the finishing touches. Luckily, our landlord is letting us take any and all repairs off of our rent! So with everything we've done the last few weeks, rent will be almost $100 cheaper! (the girl who lived here before us didn't take care of the place, so repairs have been needed). The reason we painted the bathroom is because it looked horrible from the last paint job. I can't wait to upload my pictures on here so everyone can see the difference!!

So today I am 12 weeks and 4 days pregnant and things seem to be going right in track, of course not that I know much about being pregnant! I keep joking that the baby won't let me leave 1st Trimester without a bang, because morning sickness has gotten bad this last week (probably has something to do with my traveling too)

I don't really want to go back to school tomorrow. ugh! I've really enjoyed getting to sleep so much!! At least I've been working out so I've been sleeping better at night. My sister, Amber, is a personal trainer and while I was there to get the animals taken care of, she promised me that if I follow her meal plan, and workout plan, that I will be skinnier (except belly) than before I was pregnant. Of course there will be other places that are still bigger, but oh well. I've been doing pretty well with it. Only missed one day, Thanksgiving. At least I didn't eat much since everything made me sick except the rolls. It was really sad.

Anyway, it's 1 in the afternoon and I need to wake up my hubby so we can get to work on finishing our bathroom, so I can show everyone!!

10 Weeks today

So today I am 10 weeks along. I started to feel better from my cold last night, but then was upset and crying sure doesn't help with the congestion. At least today hasn't been too bad. I'm not working much this week so I can finish packing for when we have everyone come to help on Saturday. We are getting doughnuts for people and that seems to have brought in a good response from the Elder's Quorum! We drive by/walk by the new place almost every day and we've seen them busy doing repairs and yard work. So it's nice to know that we'll have a landlord that actually follows through on things.

I don't think I posted anything about this, but we did find a family to take over our lease. It's perfect for them too because they are wanting to buy a house by March/April, when the lease is up.

I'm really missing my mom lately. Last night was horrible. I kept remembering how she looked and was when she died. And I kept thinking about all the things that I could have done better to help her more. Then thinking about the family and how we all seemed to be together in everything and then in a moment everything gets blown up.

I know my mom loved me and I have my memories to remind me of that. My memories and not much more. I'm just glad that I know that and know that I have those memories to keep me going. I don't need much else to know that.

I'm not trying to prove a point or anything, I just need to write down what I'm feeling right now. I'm hurt and I really don't need the drama. I'm not sure what I want to do now, or how I am supposed to fix everything. I guess I'm just supposed to take the blame for everything and say that I am stupid and can't do anything right and that I'm selfish and don't think of anyone else. I don't know.

Sometimes I just wish people would think before saying hurtful things that hurt someone deeper and more than they probably know...

This had me in tears last night...

Since I'm not sure how to get a video up here, here is the link to it on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbN0g8-zbdY


Here is the translation:

Time to say goodbye -- I'll go with you
Sarah
When I'm alone
I dream of the horizon
and words fail;
yes, I know there is no light
in a room where the sun is absent,
if you are not here with me.
At the windows
show everyone my heart
which you set alight;
enclose within me
the light you
encountered on the street.

Time to say goodbye. -- I'll go with you
to countries I never
saw and shared with you,
now, yes, I shall experience them.
I'll go with you
on ships across seas
which, I know,
no, no, exist no longer;
it's time to say goodbye. -- with you I shall experience them.

Andrea
When you are far away
I dream of the horizon
and words fail,
and, yes, I know
that you are with me;
you, my moon, are here with me,
my sun, you are here with me
with me, with me, with me.

Time to say goodbye. -- I'll go with you
to countries I never
saw and shared with you,
now, yes, I shall experience them.
I'll go with you
on ships across seas
which, I know,
no, no, exist no longer,

Both
with you I shall experience them again.
I'll go with you
on ships across seas
which, I know,
no, no, exist no longer,
with you I shall experience them again.
I'll go with you.

You and me.

Tears :(

So I hadn't had too bad of morning sickness before, just a ton of nausea, which I can handle. Well last week I went to Aurora to hang out with dad and I had a migraine. We were watching a movie and then I felt like I was going to puke. Well I ran to the bathroom and got everything out and amazingly felt better!! Then today Jaren and I were both down there and we'd just got from the Temple with dad. I woke up late and didn't get to eat. Then I took my prenatal vitamin and started gagging, which I do when I take pills. Well this time I wasn't lucky enough to make it to the bathroom and I puked on dad's hall floor - I'm just glad that it's hardwood and not carpet!!

But after that we went to Red Lobster for lunch and I ate crab legs. YUM!! Of course I also have a cold, so now I feel sick again :( Only 5 more hours until Jaren gets home from work!!

1st Ultrasound!

So I had my first prenatal appointment today! I went in and really liked the doctor. He was funny, blunt, and honest and I felt like I was in good hands! So first thing he did, since I was 10 weeks tomorrow, was check to try and hear the heartbeat. We heard a lot of swooshing, but no heartbeat, which is ok for this early. Then he felt my uterus to see how much it's expanded and I found that my uterus is tilted back a bit, and we figured that's why we couldn't hear it. Then he did the internal ultrasound and I got to see our little baby June Bug! I saw the heart beating fast and also the doctor said the baby "kicked" the foot too, which was cool. Then we got the first picture, which is attached! But the baby is measuring at 8weeks 3days in the picture. Then the 2nd look, different angle was 4days, then the best angle was 5 days. So he said that I'm 8 weeks and 5 days pregnant, so not the 10 weeks we were thinking! So my new due date, instead of June 1st, is June 9th! And June 9th also happens to be Jaren's birthday!

So it was a fun day and we are so excited! We have our baby's first picture in a frame, which is so adorable!