I HAVE to have less stress or else...

So I went to my therapist today (for my memory) and got a ton of great tips for remembering and how to manage everything and it was great.  Then she told me that if I didn't get my stress under control, then I wouldn't get better as fast.  Well then we left and decided since I've been getting sick, to go see my new doctor.  So I went in and we discussed tons of stuff, and then I gave blood and stuff and now we have to schedule a colonoscopy.  Basically they think I might have Chron's Disease like my mom has.  So yeah...Anyway, so Jaren and I are now trying to find a place to live, which is the source of all my stress right now! lol.  

So I'll post a picture of the Bridesmaid dresses that I really like.  In the picture it's the yellow one, but in reality I want them rose/blood red!!!  The Dress is a

 Butterick pattern, which I bought at Joann Fabrics!

Ok so I wanted to add on this amazing dress that I fell in love with!  Plus It's only $208!  The back is opened a bit, but my mom said that we could modify it - I think it's worth it!

So yesterday I was looking at other dresses, just for fun and to see if I could find my dress for cheaper and I ran across some interesting pictures!  I saw the one and had to look at it closer.  I then called my dad over and asked him who it looked like.  He looked at the picture a minute and then said, "What are you doing in a wedding dress?"  It was crazy because it seriously looked like me!  Then later last night I sent them to Jaren and told him it was me and he never said differently..which was kinda sad.lol.  

Dress!!!!!

Okey day ya'll!  So I feel that I could conquer the world today!  I have my dress picked out, well I've had it picked out for a very long time because I love it!  It's called Brazil, which is funny because Jaren went on his mission to Brazil.  I only realized the name after I picked it out, which was an awesome coincidence!  

I don't really have much to say today so far...We're going to have a pretty long engagement, since we're not getting married until next year (my sister-in-law is due in December and she's one of my bridesmaids!)  

The point being, we have time to get things figured out.  I'm full speed ahead right now though, because once school starts again, we're going to be swamped and I know things could possibly get lost in all of it.  

Well...I hope to get thoughts about the dress back!  :)  

Yay!

Ok so I was going crazy over the whole apartment thing, luc

kily though Jaren was very persistent in talking to people and we have 

had some interest in someone taking my 

spo

t in the apartment!  YAY! 

 Less stress for me!

And then yesterday Jaren and I spent almost the 

whole day talking about when we want the wedding and I'll just leave it at that.  lol.  :p  

After talking so long, I feel so much better!  I'm really really excit

ed to mo

ve back up to Fort Collins.  I miss it so much!  

Ok so I'm 

watching the tv as I write this and I just saw a new Burger King commercial.  It was a mom trying to get her daughter to eat an apple, but her daughter wouldn't until the Burger King Guy came in with apple slices shaped as fries.  It made me

 very sad to see that - I mean if the only way kids will eat fruit now is to shape it to look like fries, that is not good.  

Also, I babysit every Monday night, and some Wednesdays, and I alm

ost pulled my hair out last night!  Before I left for Italy, we had

 finally gotten into a good routine.  The kids were finally saying please and thank you and we were getting used to how things 

were working.  Well I was gone for two weeks and yesterday when I c

ame back they were not very good.  The 4 year old girl was very sassy and crying over nothing, she was tired and not u

sed to not getting whatever she wanted.  The 2 year old boy was actually ok, the only thing he did wrong was throw grass at a neighbor kid.  Overall it

 wasn't horrible, I just was sad because we had gotten into a good routine and now we have 

to almost start all over again!  lol.  I love them though!!!! 

So today should be a good day and I'm excited!  I get to help my mommy make dinner for the missionaries and that will be fun.  I LOVE to cook!  We are cooking an Italian dish, and it makes me miss Italy so much!  I'm hoping that I can go back with Jaren next summer!  

Ok and maybe a few more pictures from Italy! He he...

And the stress begins...

So in May/June, I was offered an apartment to live in, which was awesome because it's a 3 bedroom apartment for $250 a person/month.  And since it's about a 15 minute walk from campus, it's not bad at all.  So I decided to ask Jaren whether or not I should go for it, since we'd been talking about marriage.  He said not to, but then after a week or so, he told me to sign the lease.  Well now I have a problem...I'm not officially stuck in my year long lease, but once I pay, then I am.  So I talked things over with my parents and they brought up a brilliant idea.  They said that we should find someone now to replace me, before I owe money for the apartment, and then find an apartment where Jaren and I would like to live after we're married.  So I told Jaren this and we are now both frantically searching for someone to take my place with the apartment.  I feel really bad because Jaren is having to do most of the work, because he's actually in Fort Collins, and I'm in Aurora still.  

I know everything will work out, but figuring out details is much harder when you are not around each other in person!  Also trying to decide on a date is hard, because we are trying to cater to everyone's wants and needs, but at the same time we both feel that we need to do what is best and easiest for us.  Dates are being thrown around left and right, but I'll let everyone know when we know!

So the first few days of being engaged have been very interesting.  There are so many details to think about and picking a wedding date is harder than I thought!!  My family is spread out all over and my sister-in-law is expecting a baby, so things are difficult to figure out, especially since we want everyone there!  

Jaren and I are in two different cities, which also makes things a little more difficult.  I bet things will be a lot easier after I move to Fort Collins!  

So this picture was taken a few minutes after Jaren asked me to marry him!  It was quite funny because he ripped his pants while kneeling down!!  It was hilarious!  I am so excited to be engaged to the man I love!!  

Italy and Engagement

So I spent the first two week on July in Urbino, Italy for a music course.  I got back on the 16th of July and was surprised the next day with an engagement from Jaren!